Let’s be honest with ourselves… Feelings lie. They aren’t reliable. They change in a moment, led by our fickle hearts. Feelings cause us to feel unloved when we think someone looks at us the wrong way or when someone else accidentally forgets to wave back. Feelings cause us to assume the worst and to doubt the esteem that others regard us with. Feelings cause us to quickly doubt the promises of God and to quickly forget all the miraculous things He has already done on our behalf. Feelings lie.
For this reason, our Christian walk can NOT be about feelings. It’s not about what we feel or what we see. God IS faithful. God IS sovereign. God IS good. No matter how I feel and no matter how the situation looks, I know that my God is, indeed, working on my behalf.
Now, I’ve recently undergone a season of dryness. What I mean by that is that it has been a real struggle to spend time and commune with God. I have had no desire to be in my Word or to pray. I haven’t felt His voice or sensed His presence nearly as strongly as I am accustomed to, and I was very confused as to why this was happening. The Lord taught me several key things through this time, however.
Firstly, I came to the realization that I needed to lack His presence to some degree, so my desire could be rekindled. We, as Americans, are used to such instant gratification; and I, with my walk with Christ, am used to immediately sensing His presence as I seek His face. The Lord gave me the illustration of a man in the desert. If a man is constantly supplied with water, he knows no thirst. He doesn’t even understand his utter need for and dependence upon that water. Remove that water for a time, however, and suddenly he gets desperate. The Lord desires a people who are desperate for His presence, not passively asking for it when they have extra time in their week. He often allows us to encounter dry seasons so that we can once again see our need for Him, so that we can see that His presence is lacking and miss it. If I were in the desert lacking water and knew that if I searched hard enough I would find it, there’s no way I would give up. Water is too necessary for my survival. In the same way, I know that apart from Christ and His presence, my life is meaningless. I need His strength in every day. With this being said, don’t get discouraged when you’re going through a dry season. Dry seasons aren’t to harm you or to punish you; they’re to awaken you. Get zealous and passionate before Him. Seek His face. If you want more of Him, if you want more than what you’ve ever had, try doing something you’ve never done. Pursue Him for Him, not for what He can give you. Seek Him for His presence.
In the midst of this time, Satan began to attack me in such painstaking ways. He told me I was a hypocrite for reading my Word or for praying when I wasn’t feeling anything. He told me that I was just going through the motions and that surely it was sin to be seeking God when my heart couldn’t feel Him. For a time, I was deeply discouraged, but the voice of God spoke out and silenced Satan’s lies. The Father spoke to me and reminded me that it is NEVER a bad time to pray. It is NEVER a bad time to worship. It is NEVER a bad time to seek His face. In fact, when you don’t feel it, that’s the perfect time to press in harder. Faith is NOT about how you feel. Faith is about what He DID when He died on the cross, shed his blood for our sins, and resurrected, receiving all the victory, glory, and honor. Faith is NEVER about how I feel. It’s always about trusting what He did. So in this season, I’m reminding myself that the God who is the same yesterday, today, and forever is still holding me in His hands. He loves my praise just as much if not more so when I seek Him when it hurts and when I feel absolutely nothing at all. When Satan tries to silence your praise and to place a spirit of discouragement upon you, lift your voice up a little bit louder, for God has already given you the victory. If we seek, friends, and if we don’t give up, we will sense His glorious presence once again. In the meanwhile, seek Him hard and remember that feelings lie.
Hebrews 10:35-36 “So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised.”
Hebrews 11:1 “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.”
Psalm 30:5 “weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.”